Is there reason behind one’s existence(swadharma/essence) at all?
OR
Is existence in itself a reason enough?
If one’s swadharma is the very essence of one’s being, the very purpose for which one exists;
Then Why doesn’t one know it from the very start?
Why is one deluded from knowing the one thing one exists for?
Shouldn’t one know it right from one’s birth so as to avoid wastage of one’s efforts in other pursuits?
Or is it that one knows it but doesn’t accept it?
Why is one’s own essence of existence so difficult to come in terms with/accept?
P.S: The creation never fails to puzzle me. Infinite questions arise in my mind throughout the day on the varied manifestations of the universal energy. I will be sharing these queries as a series with all of you with the hope of finding some answers.
Regards
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Just A Crazy Dreamer 
If you do find find the answer to your questions then let me know too…
However, your post got me thinking….
let’s consider a scenario that you and a couple of your friends have a very important appointment tomorrow. You all know that this appointment can dramatically change your life but at the end of the day you all are commanded to go to sleep.
Lets say one of your friends is so excited about the coming appointment that even though he closes his eyes and tries to sleep, he still can’t do so…and when the morning comes he is already awake and already waiting for the appointment….such a friend is similar to a rare class of siddhas who are born enlightened, like Baba Nityananda (of Ganeshpuri), Anandamayi Ma , etc.
Let’s say you, specifically, are the kind of person who is excited by the prospect of that life-changing appointment but you do manage to fall asleep. However, in your dreams you are still fantasizing about that important appointment and when you do get up in the morning you quickly remember where you are supposed to be going…so you prep up quickly and get ready for the appointment….
There’s however, a third scenario too – let’s say, some of your friends, who also know about the appointment, fall asleep so hard that it is only when the alarm clock rings that they manages to wake up….and some amongst them still ignore the alarm and go off to sleep again…totally ignoring the appointment..these are the people who ignore the real purpose of their life and instead, prefer to remain immersed in various indulgences…so, they miss the appointment and have to reschedule it for some other day (what we call the next life, if that’s true).
So,…that important appointment is the meeting with the ‘self’
the sleep is similar to the life we live in the wakeful state (except, that the wakeful state is yet another kind of sleep and we only wake up when remember the ‘self’)
while, the alarm clock may be anything that shocks you, surprises you, or forces you ask yourself the right questions (it could be anything like a tryst with death, an accident, a meeting with someone influential, or some other dramatic event in your life)…
The above scenarios can give a hint to your questions like –
why some people don’t know it from the start,
while some are deluded by the indulgences,
and some others know it right from their birth!
just my two cents…
Trying to reply to your questions:
Is there reason behind one’s existence(swadharma/essence) at all?
OR
Is existence in itself a reason enough?
They say there are two days that are important for human life:
1. When one take birth.
2. When one who why.
For those who want to seek the “reason” they have it and those who don’t seek then don’t.
Answers are given to those who seek them. Otherwise answers have no meaning.
If one’s swadharma is the very essence of one’s being, the very purpose for which one exists;
Then Why doesn’t one know it from the very start?
What is swadharma? Swa+ Dharma. Means one’s own dharma. To know one’s supreme goal,there is need to realize his/her true nature, which is the absolute existence, absolute knowledge and absolute bliss.
If “swadharma” is known from very start, won’t it become too mechanical, where one get’s human life and told to work accordingly. Supreme wants one to be free being working with free will. Otherwise even if one is doing his swadharma still there will be restlessness, that one is the slave.
It is only when we are tired of worldly pleasures, we want to go back to our real abode and then we try to introspect and gaze within. Answers come to those, who find in themselves a conflict, a quest.
Quoting from a poem “Intimations of Immortality” by William Wordsworth : “Our birth is but a sleep and forgetting”.
“Sleep” means which make us unconscious of our divine self and “forgetting” mean forgetfulness of our real nature. We are supposed to know what we are not. Sri Ramkrishna said : “Let us be honest; let us not be traitors to our thoughts. Do we really want to reach the Goal? Do we really want realization? If we really want it, we will be able to reach it.”
Its only after a dark night, one feels essence of day.
Why is one deluded from knowing the one thing one exists for? I would say from my experience : No one is deluded. Nature gives hints all the time. It’s we who misses them in our despair.
So even if one seeks but with turbulent mind will not see those hints.
You “fight” for peace,”war”(internal) will you get.
Why is one’s own essence of existence so difficult to come in terms with/accept?
Could not realize answer for this.