Beginning tomorrow i.e Wednesday, i will be starting with maintaining noble silence(मौन उपवास) and fasting(उपवास) once every week. I have specifically chosen Wednesday’s because in my memory, it doesn’t have any religious significance and thus, will not add any such flavor to my act. I am starting with the fasting because i want to understand first hand what hunger is, i want to know what its like to sleep on a hungry stomach, what’s it like to have things to eat all around and still not be able to eat them. I recently saw a picture shared by a friend of a poor women cooking up rats to eat while her naked hungry kid sat waiting for food. This picture has rattled me to the core and made me challenge some of my very basic fundamental beliefs. I want to fully understand the importance and significance of having the choice of eating whatever i want whenever i want. The only way of developing such understanding is by experiencing the other extreme. Thus, the one day a week fast.
Regarding, the noble silence: I feel that living in the city with so much noise all around at times gets to me and i kinda stop listening to my own voice. I start flowing with the flow of the noise rather than remaining naturally in my own. I believe maintaining silence for a day would help me recuperate and also, keep that connection with my inner self very much alive. It will be a day for me to simply be with myself, a day of self-cleansing. 🙂
The reason behind this post is to seek other people’s understanding on the same. I won’t be picking up any calls on Wednesday. In case of an emergency, please drop me a text and i will surely get back to you BUT only if its an emergency. For all other purposes, i would request you to drop me a mail and i will get back to you on Thursday. Please please bear with me on this and wish me luck, trust me i really need loads of it to keep up with this as maintaining this is going to take all the self-control i can muster. 🙂
P.S: Please share your views on the same and also, if you any suggestions that would help me do this better. I have never been good with fasting as i love eating. Also, though i have been quiet for 10 days in Vipassana, this will be the first time i will be silent while being in a normal environment, so am a bit nervous. 🙂